May 27, 2011

New Beginnings

It's been a while since I've written anything on my blog. I thought I'd take a break from the computer for a while to try and get myself organized. I'm still setting up my studio, such a huge job and I'm not done yet! Oy! 
We're down to 3 weeks now, before my husband retires and it's getting very exciting. Finally, we'll be able to work on the house and garden full time. I've also been making a new website and blog. Hard! Between submitting my YA novel, knitting bunnies and creating some greeting card illustrations it'll probably take me all summer before my website and blog are finished. I've decided not to fret about it, but take my time. After all, they say it's the journey not the destination that counts. 
David I were having coffee on the deck this morning when a robin started making a big racket from our dogwood tree.
You can see the dogwood there, off in the distance.
 Here's bit of a close-up. Kind of a cloudy day and as you can see, my pictures aren't the greatest. When I looked down over the railing I realized what all the fuss was about. 
Hidden amongst the wisteria blooms was the most precious little nest I've ever seen. I hope I haven't scared mama away. I think we shouldn't use the back porch til the babies are hatched, but David says we can't live our lives around a robin. Boo. We can't?  I hope she returns, I'd love to be part of that genesis; good excuse to get my grandsons over here to see it. 
Too cute.
View from the ground. The nest is right near the red arrow and in line with my table. 
 Another section of the yard, looks pretty even when it's a mess. I've neglected my poor garden for about three years, now. The first year I was writing my YA novel. The second, I broke my foot. And third, last year, I was in school trying to learn how to start my little business. Now that's finally over, I'm sure the garden will be beautiful again in no time. A perfect place for David and I to start the next chapter of our lives together. Here's to new beginnings, simple pleasures and lovely weekends. This I wish for you.  
"Weeds are flowers too, once you get to know them."
— A.A. Milne

May 9, 2011

Soul Searching

 My son Ben and his sweet fiance Jenna, gave me this beautiful Calla lily for mother's day. Such a sparkling addition for my garden. 
I was doing a little soul searching today while I wandered through my sanctuary and feeling a tad disappointed in myself. Disappointed because I was backing out of the craft show I was supposed to do on June 4th. and I'm not sure how I felt about it. Though once the decision had been made, to say I was relieved is an understatement. So I guess that says something. 
I was fighting with myself over whether my backing out was really legitimate or just me retreating again? Not pushing myself. Even while I was saying yes, 
2 wks earlier, I worried about the time frame for producing my product. I know Kelly Rae Roberts said she did her first craft fair with hardly anything. All I can say to that is, she's young and brave. 
It was flattering in the beginning that somebody wanted me to be part of something so grand and I really expected to make a big splash with it; finally, what I'd hoped for. But when time flashed by quick as a lightening bolt, I knew there was no way I was going to be ready. Plus, I was starting to completely stress out and my life was not so fun anymore. So much for bursting my boundaries.
Afraid to back out and afraid to go on. I had to decide if the pressure I was going through was worth it. It wasn’t. Ultimately, I’m the only one who can feel my pain. If I'm not ready, I'm not ready. No sense beating myself up over it, I say, trying to bolster my courage and feeling yellow as new leaves.
 I came to my conclusion while photographing this enchanting Jack and the Beanstalk cloud, that following my heart was the only answer. That, and forgiving myself which is major, if I'm ever going to plow through this gigantic roadblock I've sat behind my whole life. 
So I settled on being okay with me, to move at my own pace and try again in the fall. I called and cancelled. Candice was so kind and understanding and didn't hold anything against me. Whew, what a relief! We talked about the fall and Christmas. I'm going to take the summer to regroup and create as much as I possibly can now that I have such a wonderful place to work. So, onward and upward as my dear mother always says. There are illustrations to paint and bunnies to knit. 
Here's to a positive summer with dainty pink daisies and many little Jinxie's to keep me happy.
Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day. 
--Pooh's Little Instruction Book, inspired by A.A. Milne.

May 6, 2011

Summer Babies

May is here already and I'm dying to dig in my garden, if it would ever stop raining, that is.
The clouds can hide the sun but they can't hide the gorgeous flowers that lined the walkway of my grocery store today. 

Pansies are my favourite flower.

These next four photos were taken in my garden last Spring. I can hardly wait for those sunny days again.

My Rhodos are just beginning to poke their pretty little noses out. Soon the butterflies will be back.
When you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and Think of Things, you find sometimes that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it.
-- Pooh's Little Instruction Book, inspired by A. A. Milne